Without judgment. Without expectation. Without doubt.

It's January 2016.

I am a shaman.

I am a tarot professional. 

I spent two years busting my butt to build my own business.

I spent two years relentlessly working on myself.

Acknowledging my inner demons and cleansing

the dark corners left unattended for more than a decade.

While raising three children.

While holding down a part time job. 

While balancing depression, bipolar disorder, and anxiety.

While going to therapy. Religiously.

I spent last year falling in love, and re-breaking my heart a few times.

I spent less time mending it back together and more time picking

apart the lessons each heartache blessed me with. 

I let go, I went crawling back, and I let go again.

A few times.

(Hey, nobody's perfect...)

In 2015 I stopped feeling sorry for myself.

I stopped victimizing myself and my "situation".

"Situation", hah... 

I finally realized there was no "situation".

There was me surviving and thriving and making my way in this world.

Fearlessly embracing the unknown and 

embracing its beauty with a ferocity I never knew I 

possessed. 

I stopped replaying old scenarios that no longer served me. 

I stopped being bitter and resentful. 

Though, sometimes the bitterness took new forms, and I recognized

their shape-shifting quickly.

 I caught them and threw them back outside 

where they belonged.

I worked and re-worked old paradigms. 

I stopped being 

"Divorced, single mom of three, too many animals, 

no time for you. Get away from me. I don't need you."

I became

"This is me exactly as I am. 

Take me or leave me.

I love who I am and I won't change myself

to fit your insecurities. 

I won't ask you to change who you are either.

I wont guilt you if your free will leaves you 

wanting to walk away from me."

I became okay with the ever changing, impossible to predict

motions of life. I became okay with the fact

 sometimes I may be too strong for someone.

 Or not enough for others. Or just not the right time.

In 2015 I learned to take life as it approached me.

Without judgement.

Without expectation.

Without doubt.

I was exactly where I was meant to be, learning exactly what needed to be learned, 

experiencing whatever needed to be fed to me. 

I was living. 

In 2015 I was living authentically. 

Finally. 

Cheers to 2016 being just as beautiful and raw!