I wrote a confession. And then I ripped it up because it felt wrong. I am not even sure if I should feel guilty or not. But it was the truth. The worst part, I feel annoying for admitting it to people. No one really understands unless they have or are in this situation.
Being a stay at home mommy- with no car- is so lonely.
Housework has become less of a chore and more of a distraction to keep from feeling the intense loneliness.
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I have been there. And then I got a car, and then Todd's broke so he took mine. Then I got it back. But my problem is when I am lonely, I get depressed, when I get depressed I get overwhelmed and when I get overwhelmed I do nothing. For awhile, my apartment was very dirty. I just didn't clean at all. Now I pay for it. I feel like i will never catch up.
I think I am getting to that point. There are no real answers. It's tough. And I know it is worth it, but the complete desolation is really hard. I am such a social person I thrive off of others company. Just having someone to keep me company all day changes my whole perspective. Even if that person was in a different room, at least I am not alone ya know? I have been getting sloppy too sadly.
I can only imagine what it feels like to be immobilized, with two kids and a lot of work to do. I am a student who works all day and night to finish an insane amount of coursework. When I get super stressed, I drive to the local Goodwill, or supermarket...anything...just to get out. It will drive you mad to stay in one place all the time. Just know that you are never, ever alone. Every time I think that I've pent myself up in my room too much, I get frustrated. But then I make a conscious effort to remember that I ALWAYS have the choice to do something about it. Whether it is going somewhere for coffee or simply stepping outside my house for a breath of fresh air.
Oooooh my goooosh, yes! that's how I turned to blogging again...
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