I know I have been a SAHM for 3 years now but every single day I ask myself,
"How the hell do I have my sanity after being in a home day in and out for a week span at a time?"
Honestly.
Today is one of those days where I completely envy the hubby for going out for a hair cut and then getting to go to Best Buy with friends. I sit here while Trace smashes cars into each other and Phoenix cries for me to hold her ALL DAY LONG. I shouldn't complain. I had a friend come over and dye my hair for free (which I am beyond grateful for) and more friends come to have a playdate. All and good, I am so happy for the company. If people didn't visit me once in a while I would truly go nutso. But I am SICK OF KIDS and I'm watching the clock for it to be 7pm and I get to leave the house for a little bit.
ALONE.
Unless you have been a SAHM you have NO idea how it feels. The seclusion and monotony make me feel like a dumbed down zombie. Food, diapers, toys, naps, food, diapers, toys, naps. And we must not forget the meltdowns. I wish I could turn the tables on my husband and have him take my place. Admitidly it isn't so much so that he can understand how hard it is, but more just to watch him go crazy for a bit.
I feel like a complete jerk for saying this because I love my kids to death and they are being so good right now.
Sigh.
I freakin love my babies. I just to vent.
2 comments:
You have a right to your own life too. If you're frustrated, you have every right to complain/vent!
"How the hell do I have my sanity after being in a home day in and out for a week span at a time?"
I feel for you. I'm a stay at home mom with no driver's license. Marius has been deployed for almost 3 months now and I am sometimes very lonely, considering sometimes we only get out to go grocery shopping once a week. I'm very isolated. It can be really hard at times.
"Today is one of those days where I completely envy the hubby for going out for a hair cut and then getting to go to Best Buy with friends." Is there a reason why you can't take the kids and go with him? Wear Fifi in the Ergo and put your husband in charge of Trace?
Hope you feel better soon. I'm around if you ever want to talk to someone in a similar situation. :)
Adria thank you so much for the support, I think of you often when I get lonely and say, "she is going through the same thing as me- I am not alone." xoxxo
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