Please bear with my absence, life has been throwing me horrible curve balls. I am trying my hardest to balance the kids and getting them situated in a new place. I am finding it hard to do so and work on a marriage that is really rocky at the moment. All with a baby on the way right around the corner.
When I say I am mentally and physically exhausted it doesn't even begin to explain the emotions encircling me. There are periods of complete and utter break down. Sobbing alone in the bathroom at 3 am. And there are the periods of inner strength that I had no idea I even had in me.
There are times I hold my broken heart outside myself just to get through the day, I choke back tears of confusion and anger. And other times I am snuggled safely between my sweet children and soak up the amazing loving energy they give to me. Yet, with everything going on I still find the blessings and beauty in every day life. I have to. And at the moment living day to day- moment to moment is all I can do.
The wonderful thing about life is that you can never have the gorgeous powerful good times without a few bumps in the road.
Here before me is a bump, no- a hill, that I must walk up before I can get to the other side. When I get to the top of this hill I will look out in awe at how far I have come, and begin the descent into the next chapter of my life.